Question: Guru, sometimes when I don't see you for a long time and I sit down and look at your picture to meditate, I feel there is a block that does not let me feel your love and concern flowing to me; I feel that you are displeased with me and that you have reason to be so.

Sri Chinmoy: Perfection is very good and it is something that I deeply appreciate, but what happens is that we give more value than we should to perfection beyond our capacity. A child can learn A, B and C on one day, but it is beyond his capacity to learn from A to Z in one day. If he tries, he may get the A, B and C but then all the rest will make no sense. What happens is that you start to push or pull for what you consider perfection but that perfection is twenty steps ahead of you. You have covered already a great distance, but when you see your goal in front of you you think you should be able to reach it at once although you may be tired. Your capacity is limited. Your mind wants to shape your goal and calculate your progress. But, like a runner nearing his goal, there is a limit to how fast you can go. Like a runner, you must be careful not to fall just before you reach the finishing line. You may see that you have a little impurity, a little jealousy, but you must know that total perfection is beyond your capacity right now.

The block that you see does not come from me and it does not come from you. It is a hostile attack that wants to take you away from my life. It wants to separate you from my Love and my Light. These forces want to make you unhappy. You set up a standard of perfection and that is wrong, you say that if this is done in this way, then it is perfection. But there are different ways to score a goal in a game. You can use your left foot or your right foot or your head. You must give up the attitude of trying to score. You should let God make the decision as to how to score. Let your Guru and your Alo make the decision as to whether you will use your right foot or left foot or your head. Before you aim, invoke the presence of the Supreme’s eye. Then the mental sense of perfection will not enter. Do not shape your goal and do not calculate. Your mind says that if you have this experience then you will call it Light, if you have another kind of experience, you will call it Peace or power. But Light itself is Power. Peace is Power. Perhaps you are feeling very peaceful and you have achieved only a little Peace. But in real Peace the atom bomb could drop down right next to you and you would not hear it. Certainly that kind of peace is power. In each thing is found all. Don’t try to put everything in a certain place or call it a certain name. That is trying to put reality into a certain form. But don’t try to give reality a certain shape or form. The Supreme will show reality according to His Will. Don’t wait for the mind to be convinced or to measure your progress or your goal. You must let God’s Grace take you to the goal. Put all importance in the Compassion and Grace of the Supreme. Your starting point now once was your goal. So if you don’t try to shape your goal or measure the distance ahead of you, your goal and soul will meet together. The Supreme’s Grace will be able to work inside you and the Supreme’s Grace will achieve everything for you.