49. My doubt-child and my faith-child

My doubt-child will not live with me
    For a long time.
He has a very short life;
    Therefore
I am treasuring him and cherishing him.

My faith-child will not only have
    A long life,
But an eternal life;
    Therefore
I am not so fond of him right now.

Once my doubt-child dies,
The joy that I now give to my doubt-child
Will all be given to my faith-child
In addition to what I now give to my
    faith-child.
When I am left with only my faith-child,
My faith-child will have everything
That I have and that I am.
What I have is sacrifice
    And
What I am is smile.