You have awakened me1

My Lord Supreme, my Beloved Supreme, You wanted to awaken my sleeping heart with Your Satisfaction-Heart. But, alas, I did not allow You to succeed. Therefore, You badly failed.

My Lord Supreme, my Beloved Supreme, You wanted to awaken my sleeping heart with Your Compassion-Eye. But, alas, I did not allow You to succeed. Therefore, You badly failed.

My Lord Supreme, my Beloved Supreme, You even wanted to awaken my sleeping heart with Your Justice-Light. But, alas, I did not allow You to succeed. Therefore, You badly failed.

Finally, my Lord Supreme, You awakened me with Your utter frustration, utter exasperation and utter disgust, plus Your thunder-blows and thunder-kicks. Now I am awakened, fully awakened. But, alas, why did I prevent You from awakening me in Your own Way according to Your choice Vision?

"My child, you and I do not belong to the past. We do not even belong to the future. We belong only to the Eternal Now."


  1. EHWM 126. Stanford University; Stanford, CA, USA, 22 May 1989