How do I know?1

How do I know
That I shall have a better opportunity tomorrow
To pray to God and to meditate on God?

How do I know
That I shall have the same opportunity tomorrow
To pray to God and to meditate on God?

How do I know
That I shall have any opportunity tomorrow
To pray to God and meditate on God?

How do I know
That God will stay with me tomorrow
In spite of my lengthening lethargy?

How do I know
That God will stay with me tomorrow
In spite of my increasing insecurity?

How do I know
That God will stay with me tomorrow
In spite of my staggering impurity?

Such being the case,
I shall have to depend only on today.
Even today is too much.
Stark temptation and wild frustration
May kill me if I wait for God-realisation
Until the end of the day.

To be sure, there is no tomorrow, not even a today.
All I have is now.
All I can ever have is now.

With now, my preparation begins.
In now, my realisation dawns.
For now, my perfection glows.



  1. UNM 18. 11 February 1977