This morning, when I was lifting the cow, the weight that they gave was totally wrong. When I first tried to lift it, I said, “This will be my first embarrassment.” Then I killed myself and did it!
I wanted to have Samarpana on the platform while I was lifting the cow, but the cow was so heavy that I changed my mind. I said, “Now if I take Samarpana also, it will be too much for me to lift.”
Already the platform that is on top of my shoulders weighs 460 pounds. It is much more difficult than the one which rests on the ground.
In Chittagong we had a cow named Nandini that was almost the same size as the one I lifted today. We had anothercow named Surabhi. Surabhi was quite thin and Nandini was quite heavy.
— 27 November 1986